Friday, October 29, 2010

回来啦!

尘封了那么久,是时候开启了.....我回来啦!
好久没写blog了,太多事情想分享,太多心事倾诉,太多的想法,太多....太多.....
 请原谅我太‘长气’,我要一口气写好多的东西,谢谢你的耐心。
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      这次考试呢,都还过的去,没有很压力,只是身体差了点。每天都要早早睡,不然第二天会头晕,一整天在学校有时昏昏的,想要吐,朋友都笑我说有baby了。今天在最后一张的sejarah更是觉得要晕倒了,觉得快死掉了,可是还是靠着那么一点点的意志挨过去了。自从上个月生病后,身体一直很不好,很容易累,头晕晕,不是这里疼,就是那里痛,我甚至怀疑自己是不是患了绝症。Mummy 说只是太操劳了,体质不好,激烈活动能免则免,所以明天少团的水上游戏我是不会去咯。
      
    说到团契,在之前2011年少团职员会选举,我呢,被选到副主席。这完全是在我意料之外的。原本我都想放弃当职员,没想到上帝的安排真奇妙。上星期听·到一席话,"If you want to walk fast, walk alone ; If you want to walk far, walk together."  这话彻底提醒了我团契生活的重要,原本已下定决心,回到团契,找回那最初的感觉,选择顺服上帝,好好把团契办好。可是。。我现在怕.....怕不能胜任,觉得自己不配,原因是呢。。比如明天的水上游戏之类的,我都没去参与,我不太喜欢这种场合,可是如果明年有什么节目,连副主席都没参与,如何带领其他人,想到真是惭愧啊!还有呢就是与其他职员的关系,我怕不能和他们有很好的搭配。现在还在挣扎中,考虑要不要辞职,是时侯做决定了。有谁可以在这时候给我点意见呢?
     
     前两天看到Selina受伤的新闻,感觉好心疼,人生无常,珍惜所拥有的,让人生无憾!
Selina!你要加油哦!

  今晚先到此咯..忘了还有什么要写..很累了。。晚安!

Friday, September 17, 2010

reborn之爱情树上的果实(二)~ [伤痛苦涩的果实]

原来这就是苦的滋味,爱可以带来甜蜜,但是错的爱让人痛苦难受,两人因误会而结合,因了解分开,以这句话来形容那段苦涩的爱情,格外贴切。
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                   结束了那甜蜜的初恋,女孩怀着那又怕又期待的心,等待下一段爱的到来 可是在女孩心中始终忘不了宇捷,直到他的出现。他比女孩大两岁,皮肤黝黑,看起来就是是个爱运动的小伙子女孩间接中认识了那男孩叫齐爵,而且女孩也知道他对自己好像有意思也因此女孩对他的印象也非常深刻。害羞的齐爵不曾和女孩表白。
               
                  直到一天他试着以文字传达自己的感觉,与女孩产生了一种不一样的交流。奇迹的是那一晚女孩从一个陌生的人,变成亲密的人。但齐爵想不到的是这女孩最后成为让他心痛不已的人。整个过程发生的太快了,齐爵与女孩连做朋友的阶段都跳过了,也因此在他们的恋情中种下了一颗不定时的炸弹。

                  女孩的心当时在到底在想些什么呢?女孩自己也不知道,明知道那是一个错误,却一头往下栽。女孩的心里很乱,她质疑着她所做的决定,但是当她看到齐爵如此深爱着他,对他一心一意,女孩真的不忍心伤害他。只能努力的修补这段恋情,期望着有最好的结果。

                  渐渐地女孩发现她与齐爵在许多方面产生了矛盾。齐爵的家庭是个虔诚的佛教徒,反之女孩的家庭是个虔诚的基督徒,两者的确无法融合 。对女孩来说实在是不能接受的事实,要那一方牺牲都不可能,都不公平。女孩试着与齐爵讨论之间的问题,但始终没有最好的办法。女孩知道她与齐爵的确是个错误,女孩也感觉到她对齐爵的爱并不深,或许不能说是爱,女孩不敢与齐爵说“我爱你”这三个字,因她不确定是否自己是不是真的爱。

                   终于女孩提出了分手,齐爵不能接受。齐爵试着挽回,但女孩已决定 了,她了解他们是不会长久的。那恋情只维持了不到一个月。齐爵伤心欲绝,女孩也不好受,女孩与朋友翻了脸,被朋友误会,还背负了无比痛苦的批评与冷言冷语。但女孩选择了默默承受着一切,她明白这一切是她自找的。

                   唯一值得庆幸的是女孩从痛苦中学习了成长,学习了爱情的意义,学习如何去爱,学习了解。那段爱是个错误,是个美丽的错误,齐爵的出现让女孩的生命留下了不一样的痕迹

                                                                                     伤痛苦涩的果实    终
                                                                                                              
                                                                                                  待续。。。

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

reborn之爱情树上的果实(一)~ [初恋甜蜜的果实]

那一夜,女孩依偎在窗前,望着远方的飞鸟,渐渐地消失在浩瀚的宇宙中,女孩心里知道他永远不会在回到自己身边,但依然希望他和他的她会幸福。
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      宇捷,是班上很受欢迎的男生,他长得又高又帅,从小到大,围绕在他身边的女生多不胜
数。可是,他从来没发现在课室的另一个角落,总是有一丝的目光不曾离开过他。那时的女孩
觉得自己配不上他,能默默地看着他,对女孩来说已经是最大的幸福!
   
        新一年的除夕,女孩收到的宇捷的信息,露出那掩饰不了的兴奋表情 ,但女孩不知道自
己该不该回他的信息,害怕会换来了失落。终于女孩鼓起来勇气回复了宇捷。那年的除夕,有
了宇捷的陪伴,女孩并不孤单。十二点正,女孩轻轻地在心里许下愿望,希望每一年的除夕都
能和他一起度过。 抱着对爱情的憧憬,女孩与宇捷在一起了。

    那是他们的初恋。在那时他们的年纪,恋爱是件大事,所以很有默契地,他们都选择了保持
神秘。但是,他们俩还是像一对甜蜜的小情侣一样,关心着对方的事,时常挂念着对方。偶
尔,女孩会闹闹脾气,然而宇捷依然守护着她。女孩喜欢宇捷的一切,喜欢他的幽默搞笑,喜
欢他打球是那帅帅的脸,当然还有认真的时候。

        几个月后,女孩和宇捷的关系也被人察觉了,但他们依然享受着那偷偷摸摸的恋爱。直到
有一天,宇捷对女孩提出了暂时性的分开。虽然有百般的不愿意,女孩还是答应了,因为她不
想让宇捷为难。或许还是女孩对他的爱根本都不深刻呢?难道这就是所谓的“puppy love"呢?
        
       无论如何,这纯纯的初恋仍是女孩心中美好的回忆,因为那是甜蜜的,无悔的。
过了不久,宇捷有了新女友,女孩在心里也祝福他们。女孩也展开了她崭新的人生路。


                                                                                             第一篇初恋甜蜜的果实    终
                                                                                                                       待续。。。

Monday, September 13, 2010

Reborn之 当学业 遇上 事奉

当学业遇上了事奉,到底要怎样拿平衡呢?我到现在还是不知道。
今年我在这方面的确做的不好。

在少团里担任小组组长的职位,其实也没有像以前听别人说的可怕,我还蛮喜欢这个职位的,轻轻松松,也不用交报告。只是唯一不太好的就是去团契都没有人一起,只能说我和我的朋友太没缘分了,她来时我就没去,我去时她都没来。最近呢,有补习放在少团的时间,所以最近都看不到我在少团出现的啦!我也挣扎了蛮久的。可是,我心里也高兴了一下,因为不用去团契了。很抱歉我要这样说,团契对我来说太没归属感了!我也还在想明年要不要做职员。以前去团契是很美好的事,可是现在变成了只是责任,做职员的责任!我还是很爱主,可以在别的方面事奉。现在的我比较喜欢去GB。
学业方面呢,我想说我喜欢读书!!!很喜欢!很喜欢!我不曾和别人说过除了我们家军鹏哦!我怕别人把我当成怪胎,当成神经病!我最喜欢的科目是Sejarah!超喜欢的!读书让我觉的有精力!我也曾经读书压力到大哭,考试前挑夜灯苦读,考试期间,不止是我很忙,连我们家军鹏也好忙,因为他要忙着顾我的情绪,安慰我,给我支持。现在这情况已经改善了,我都尽量告诉自己我可以,还有放轻松就好。

当学业遇上了事奉,到底是鱼与熊掌可以兼得,或最后两头不到岸呢?前面的路,一切上帝都有安排。

预告一下,明天我会开始写小说,关于什么?明天就知道咯!

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Reborn 之 友情篇

翻开六年级的毕业纪念册,看着那稚气的文字,祝福的话,我不禁莞尔,想那时的我们都一样天真!可是,在毕业册上的小学同学,到底还有几个我到现在还认识,还有联络呢!那些‘友谊永固“等等类似的字句,现在想想是多么的讽刺!我感到欣慰的是还有几个好姐妹到目前到很好。其他的呢, 我只能说只是擦肩而过,投以轻轻地微笑。有机会的话希望可以再认识,说不定可以很聊得来哦!

曾经,朋友在我心里没有位子,那时的我甚至认为没有朋友也无所谓!当我发现做错时,已经太迟了,那伤害是不能挽回的。因曾经和要好的朋友翻脸过,让我对友情没抱有太大的信任!那时的痛苦与煎熬,让我变得对友情没有信心。就算是看起来很好的朋友,那只不过是表面,实际上也没有很亲密!大家都隐藏了自己。我觉得我最多的朋友就是那种半熟半不熟,那种似有似无的关系,曾经我们可以很聊得来,现在最多见面打个招呼,有时甚至都没有,就像不认识一样。哎哟!我不想这样啦!其实,我也很会哈啦的咯!呵呵。。混久了就会知道我是怎样的人..现在只能做的就是--等。至于之前我上一篇提过聊天时的问题,我会尽量,努力改善滴!

渐渐的,我发现只要把真心掏出来,就能找到真正的友谊。不过,自己的style和行为要不惹人厌咯!做朋友何必做到像古时候后宫里的妃子那样勾心斗角。亲爱的姐妹们,喜欢你们哦!谢谢你们在我伤心时的支持和陪伴。以前是我忽略你们了,对不起!我喜欢和你们一起聊天,虚度着青春的光阴,一起在考试前啃书,放假了就拼命玩,看戏。如果没有你们,生活真空虚。



总而来说,友谊需要真诚的心!

Saturday, September 11, 2010

BE myself

仔细想想,我有多久没做回自己。也许太久都忘了吧!
除了在我们家军鹏前,面对其他人时我都不是在做自己,都把自己藏了起来。
我伪装自己,让别人看不透,是为了保护自己.
可能是被去年的事影响了,那件事改变了我!
我开始封闭自己,将自己的心用一堵高高的围墙封起来。
一开始也许是因为不想被人伤害,过后演变为一种习惯,现在反而乐在其中!

先来说说我如何乐在其中吧!
有一句话说到,“多一个朋友好过多一个敌人”。可是呢能有很多朋友我做不到,但我告诉自己别成为别人讨厌的人。呵呵,在我眼里我把这种关系称为”中庸“。目前的我不是很善于交际。所以呢,只要是和除了我们家军鹏&亲爱的姐们以外的人谈话,我时常会不知道要说什么,只能说一些客客气气的话,之后只会陷入一片的尴尬及无语的气氛中!请大家多多包涵小妹啊!请原谅我那么一点的迟钝。其实我心里也很想和你们很聊的来的,非常想!!!

有时侯,我享受孤独的时间。喜欢那种的安静,没人陪也无所为,喜欢那种自由的感觉,自己想要什么就做什么。没有顾忌,没有害怕,没有伤害。只有——————自己!当所有的人都冷落你,你完全搭不上话时,唯一能让自己好过点的办法就是让自己享受在那份孤独中。当你忽略了。那种不安的感觉,一切都是美好的。

可是,想想又觉得不对啊!好像那样也不太好啊!记得上帝说过;“那人独居不好。”
每天把真实的自己掩盖起来,生活也未免太辛苦了吧!每天生活在其他人的影子下,没有了自己!孤单固然是一种享受,可是有朋友的陪伴的快乐更为满足!别人印象中的我,并不是真实的我,而是伪装后的我!我不想再让你们看到的我是这样的。我要找回遗失的自己,让大家重新认识我!从此,我的心事&看法不再属于军鹏一个人,而是多多在blog里分享,让你们更了解真正的我!

最后,我想说一句,不喜欢我的人,讨厌我的,你现在可以到右上角按x!这句话我时常在别人的 blog或facebook 看到,现在觉得真有意思。

黄芊羚的reborn.兑变现在开始啦!!!!

Thursday, September 9, 2010

可歌可“气”

今天呢。。真滴是可歌可泣的哦!

事件(一)早上,居然跟我妹为了一片面包吵架----可“气”指数 2 颗星

事件(二)中午,和亲爱的姐们们去sweethome吃午餐,感觉好好!----可歌指数 5 颗星

事件(三)中午与下午之间,和我爸展开了一场前所未有的激励的口舌之战-----可”气“ 指数 5 颗星

事件(四)下午,因之前的世纪大战让我元气大伤,花了两个小时休息,可是还是有点不能恢复!因此,跟朋友打球时有点心不在焉,那不争气的肚子又很很很疼,让我有心无力!真对不起啊!朋友们!----可歌指数3颗星

经过一连串的反反复复后呢,终于到了晚上和我们家的军鹏的聊天时间咯!

可是,今晚我们家的公子想要早点休息。不知死的我呢,还拼命烦他!终于,他说了一句:"你不要吵啦!你很烦叻!你再吵我就和你分手” 哦!哦!出大事咯!听到”分手“,我呢变成超级超级安静,我家军鹏说一我不说二。他狠狠地训了我!之后,我想通咯!是我活该被他骂。
经过一番调解后,我答应他:-
1. 要成熟的和他在一起,不发脾气,不无理取闹
2. 没事别烦他,有事也别烦他!(现在长大了哦,要学会自己解决!)
3.没必要每天聊天啦!想念时自然的会找哦!
来谈一场“大人”的恋爱吧!哈哈

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Perfection in my Eyes



All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart,
And for us to be together, to never be apart.

No one else in the world can even compare,
You're perfect and so is this love that we share.

We have so much more than I ever thought we would,
I love you more than I ever thought I could.

I promise to give you all I have to give,
I'll do anything for you as long as I live.

In your eyes I see our present, our future and past,
By the way you look at me I know we will last.

I hope that one day you'll come to realize,
How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.

- Ashley Borden -
I suddenly found out this poem.
It is really so meaningful.
I would like to share this to you.
Wish all of you can find the one  you love and love until the end of life. 

爱疯了! Crazy love!

No update for many days ago, just because of  lazy! Haiz.. feel so guilty.
Anyways, i am conscience now. That why, i am sitting in front of computer and typing now.

                  Just now, have a funny chat with derek. He said : 好男人长得丑,坏男人偏偏长得帅;帅的一定是穷的,有钱的男人偏偏长的很抱歉!可是像我这样又好又帅又不花心的去哪里找!After listening what he said i almost fainted and kept on laughing! hahahahahahaha... Then, we play on ’飙高音'see who can reach the highest key. I hope i am not disturbing my neighbour. For sure i am the champion of this event. hahaha...


Recently derek become so romantic, always write something make me so touch.

在不一样的地域 陌生星空下
两颗心 遥遥相挂
每一次的呼吸 每一秒的心跳
啩住你的笑
就算有些许时差
...在上想你的通告 我总不惰怠
妳那婀娜纤腰 些许冰冷的微笑
总是触动我脑海一堆的神经在狂跳
我想 一辈子就是这样
躲不了 戒不掉
你全部的好 =)

军鹏
03.09.2010 10:39p.m
古晋·马来西亚


 here is another...

漫步在巴黎街头
埃菲尔铁塔 与我相逢
成双对的白鸽自在游走
恋人在塞纳河边碰头
紫色玫瑰长满脚下的每一寸土
...这座城市 没有些许忧愁
享受在 Café de Flore
我慢慢爱上了
属于这一切 关于浪漫与爱情的节奏
"我爱疯了
我疯到自己痛也不晓得"
戴佩妮的爱疯了
是我送给你的温柔
多年后 我将与你旧地重游
体验另一种
爱疯了 的邂逅...

Derek
05.09.2010 10:17p.m
Kuching·Malaysia

 


Thank you derek !

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

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I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU  I LOVE YOU 
 I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU  I LOVE YOU 
 I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU  I LOVE YOU 

Monday, August 30, 2010

Love!!!


 Love is strong yet delicate.
It can be broken.
To truly love is to understand this.
To be in love is to respect this.

- Stephen Packer -


Nowadays, many of us crazy in love, including me also. 
Maybe someone will ask how come as an excellent student can be crazy in love?
Definitely the answer is because we need LOVE & CARE also.
This is the answer for me and also YOU.

I agreed that love someone is not easy.
I also have been failed for few times.
But now i am proud to say that
because of those failed
I turned more mature in love.
But when i had to endure those moments
life are really very difficult.
No words can be used to describe the pain in heart.
 Finally, I found out that a measure that for me as the guildline in love.

HOWEVER the most important for me is How GOD plays a role in my or your love?
Try to ask yourself this few question.

1. Is your partner a Christian?
2. Do you ever pray for your partner?
3. Do you ever pray together with your partner about your relationship with him/her?
4. If your answers are NO, it doesn't matter. Just try to practice it or discuss with your partner about it!
   
Different religious view will create a big gap between the couple.I had make a mistake before, and hurt someone deeply. Therefore, don't repeat my mistake.


 JESUS LOVE NEVER FAILS.
                                          
MAY GOD BLESSED YOU!







AT LAST
 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MALAYSIA!

COming Back!!!!

Not update my blog for some days.
Let's me tell briefly about my life in these few day.

THURSDAY, 26 AUGUST 2010

Today, my dad back from his trip 
He went to so many places ( England, Paris, Holland, Switzerland, Germany)
and he bought me  a so special present.
A ROYAL THERMES TOWEL
Check it here!!!!      
I Love this cute towel very much!!!!!              
At the same time, tonight is my grandma 73- years- old birthday celebration.
She is the most active elder that i had met before.
Hope my grandma healthy and happy everyday.


FRIDAY, 27 AUGUST 2010

Today i almost forget what happen today.
What i know is only
YES!! IT 'S FRIDAY!! HURRAY!!
Finally, I found my cheongsam suit.
That is a pink with purple cheongsam.
These few days, I should control myself to be as fit as fiddle.
so that i can put in myself in that cheongsam.

SATURDAY, 28 AUGUST 2010 + SUNDAY, 29 AUGUST 2010

NOTHING SPECIAL IN THESE TWO DAYS




AT LAST, 
I would like to say that 
WELCOME BACK to my blog.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

SORRY SERVICE TEMPORARILY NOT AVAIBLE

                           
                                  SORRY SERVICE TEMPORARILY NOT AVAIBLE
                                       
                                             BLOG UPDATE COMING SOON.....

                                            SORRY FOR THE INCONVENIENT.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Ordinary day VS Unoridinary day



 Today is an ordinary day.

But unordinary things happen.

Finally in the afternoon i have the chance chat with derek

Since he went to Kuching

he so busy until no time accompany me

Just now we kept on bla bla bla on our life.



Actually, today no mood on writing my blog.

After seeing my friend's blog

She reminds me somethings

 At here

 i would like say sorry to you

sometime i have neglect your feeling

forgive me if i agitates your mind

I still remember that when i am down

You and the others still support me 

and stay with me

Don't think that you are dust that have been neglected.

You are a dust that i never ignore!!!!!

GOOD LUCK MY FRIEND!!


Tuesday, August 24, 2010

OPSS!!!!

OPSS!! I have make a mistake just now.
The post that i posted just now actually is write for yesterday.
But i didn't notice that the date stated is today.
The tips provided by derek is very useful 
especially i am so busy and no time to update my blog
However he only teach me the half and didn't tell me need to publish it!!!!!!

Never mind JUST LET IT OVER!!
NOW is is the real post for today. 

Many of my friends are given a net book (or laptop i am not very sure also) by the government. 
I don't know whether i am lucky or unlucky, i am not the one of them.
Lucky is because i can be grouped as a 'wealthy people'
Unlucky is because i can't get the free laptop!
Sincerely at first i am really feel a bit mad that time.
I keep on thinking that why not me!!
Asking myself why i am not the lucky one.

There are many new laptop owner soon.


 Finally, i found that i am really so ignorance.

In fact ,i am already so fortunate and blessed by the God already.

I didn't get the things does not mean that i am not blessed by the God. 
Maybe God will blessing me and give me what i really need in future.
 
Why should i jealous for the things that i already owned ?
I feel relieve and happy now.

Good Night. Have a sweet dream



Happy Birthday to my MUmmy

Today is my mum birthday. 
BUT i totally forget about it.
I am feel very sorry to my mum. 
Last year i already promised myself not to forgot my mum's birthday.
However, i failed to do so.
SORRY MUMMY!

My cute sister draws a birthday card for my mum.
She always draw the same style of card and have six people insides including fang rong yiyi





HERE IS MY CARD TO YOU,  MUMMY.


My father is at Sibu now. So he can't celebrate with us.
Anyways, he had send the present for my mum.
The present are the cloud on the sky and the moon at night.
Such a romantic father!! hehe!
Unfortunately, there are not any moon in night
because the black cloud covered the moon at night.
Mummy, this is the present for mummy.



Mummy, God Blessed YOU MUCH MUCH!
I LOVE U !!!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Future

In the afternoon, i went to GB meeting and today Bible study' topic is about FUTURE

    How i look for my future?

             After 5 years, i am a 21-years-old  girl. In that time i think i will continues my study in university or college. If i am lucky, selected for the JPN and can further my study in oversea that will be so nice. However, the most important things is to study hard and fight for my future.
    
           After 10 years, i am a mature and have a stable career. Now i am not sure that what career i should choose. Maybe i will be a dentist, teacher, pilot and even an engineer. 26 years old for me is the suitable age to marriage. I will be the wife for somebody but not going to have a baby first. I would like to enjoy the life , traveling to all over the world with my beloved.

         After 15 years, i will be a mother. My life busy with sending my child go here and there just liked what my mother do now. However i will not leave my career because i don't want rely on my husband. I can buy things by my own money.


 The unknown future
I don't know what will happen in future.
I believe that God will plan for me.
God help who help themselves.

I dream of a brighter future.


Saturday, August 21, 2010

1st day



Today is the first day you leave me. However i am glad that i am not going to cry this time,just liked what i had promised to you. Everything is over. Maybe this is the new start for me and you. Sometimes it is hard for me not to missing you but i really miss you.

the only memory between you and me

Anyway

My life still going on.

A Saturday morning for me is exhilarating except it is a school day.

One of my friends told me that when you accept the things that not perfect, then it is perfect

I like this sentences very much.

First,in this world not one is perfect

so don't critic the weakness of other people seems you are not perfect also.

In my eyes, derek is the perfect one.

Although sometimes he is no good to me

but most of the times he treat me very very good and i like his round stomach very much.

I am not the perfect one so i don't hope i can get a perfect boyfriend!!
Just like last time we walked togather =)